Out of Season

I’m currently out of season. That Spiritual emptiness is upon me and I need to seek Him out. I have no interest in reading the word or prayer. This is a dangerous place to be.. been there, done that. That’s when the walls of our protection start to crumble and the enemy starts to hammer in. I covet your prayers.

The enemy is attacking, always. He is trying to deceive me in many aspects of my life. I don’t want to go to church… I don’t want to pray… I don’t want to read the word… I don’t want to blog… I don’t want to go to bible studies… So what do I do?! What is the best avenue to take? Do I obey what my flesh is saying? The past has taught me to put to death the deeds of the flesh and to press in. So here I go.. pressing in Lord –

2 Timothy 4:1-5 I charge thee therefore before God, and the Lord Jesus Christ, who shall judge the quick and the dead at his appearing and his kingdom; Preach the word; be instant in season, out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort with all longsuffering and doctrine. For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears; And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables. But watch thou in all things, endure afflictions, do the work of an evangelist, make full proof of thy ministry.

Hmm.. “..and the Lord Jesus Christ, who shall judge the quick and the dead at His appearing and His kingdom.” Shall I worry about these attacks? They are all but dead and shall be rightfully judged (as will my own life). What is really important here, the attacks of the enemy and his principalities of darkness (which will be judged by Him), or shall I focus on my own walk? I choose to focus on my own walk instead of others. Let’s roll Jesus..

“Preach the word, in season and out of season. Reprove, rebuke, exhort with all longsuffering and doctrine..” Ok Lord, I’m out of season, thus “preach the word. Reprove, rebuke, exhort with patience and doctrine.” I have done this Lord. I have been patient before reproving, rebuking and exhorting during the attacks. I will press in Lord, regardless of what the enemy says/does. Time to preach the word while I’m out of season because…

“For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine, but they shall selfishly gain teachers that will feed their itching ears. They shall turn to fables instead of the truth because they want to hear things that justify their actions and glorify self.” That’s what you’re saying, right Lord? In other words, if I focus on being out of season, then I may miss what you want to use me for? I need to press in for Your sake, regardless of what I feel, because the time will come when people will not listen to truth but instead turn to their own selfish understandings and desires. They will turn to false teachers who will itch their ears (stroke their egos). Ok, got it. It isn’t about me, my feelings, my ideas, etc. It’s about You and others.

“Be watchful in all things, endure this out of season affliction, evangelize, and accomplish the ministry.” Ok Lord, I will patiently endure and trust in You. I will press in and be watchful. I will continue with Your strength and the Helper.

Help me Helper, guide me Guider, save me Savior, teach me Teacher, make me Maker, mold me Molder, father me Father, strengthen me Strengthener, to the Author and Finisher of our faith – grant me faith that surpasses all understanding, avenge me Avenger for you say vengeance is yours – I will not worry about these attacks, you got this.

I will thank you and bless you both in and out of season Lord. I love you, always.