Here is a play by play battle that is going on for this mind and the fade that I have been writing about. I’m at the brink of fading and spiraling downward, but He says “Endure!” I’m at the moment of all moments – Choice. Either I’m going to sink in the water or continue walking on the water with Jesus Christ. This is a personal witnessing of this mind, emotions, and the battle. It is ultimately my choice to believe in the things of this world or believe in Him. Thoughts are coming in from 2 different angles: One is of the world (deception, which is resulting in negative emotions) and the other is the Sword of the Spirit (Truth, which is in-line with the Word of God, resulting in joy, peace and contentment).
Whichever one I succumb to will determine if my next step will be on the water or if I sink into the water. To give myself and any readers a good understanding, I’m first going to dig into the Word and see what God says about this intellect. I’m feeling led to research the issue of heart. I know I have journaled about this in the past, but it is so important in the midst of a battle to get into the Word. I pray this helps anyone else that may experience this as well. In Jesus name, amen.
Within this mind, I see a few things taking place. First, there is the old man’s ways before accepting Christ into my life. The old habits, thought patterns, etc. The old identity’s thought patterns resurface at times. Such thought patterns always align with things of the world that were taught through societal influences such as family, friends, tv, etc (the fallen world through Adam). These thought patterns are a result of what the world molded me into thinking. They are me, my ideals, the flesh, habits, etc., but the root (the molder) came from things other than God.
Then, there is the new man, the new nature from being born again in Jesus Christ. Their are thought patterns which are in-line with the mind of Jesus Christ (the Word, Sword of the Spirit, etc). These new thoughts are righteous, good, and align with the character of God. It truly is the Word of God, Jesus Christ’s teachings, the Spirit’s unction, etc. These thought patterns are a result of what God molds. They are Him, His ideals, the Spirit, new habits, etc. and they come from God’s molding.
Lastly, there are outward things that come from situations, people, etc. These outward things will either line-up with the old nature or the new nature in-Christ. They end up being an influence on things of the world or things of God.
Thus, with these things in mind, I’m taking a look at the moment of choice. I’m going to dissect the very moment that I decide which thought patterns to choose and deny. At the moment of choice, one thought pattern is chosen and another thought pattern is denied. Ultimately, either we choose God and deny ourselves (the old man, the world’s ways, etc) or we choose the ways of the world and deny God. I pray the blogging of such will bless you in some fashion or another. In Jesus name, amen –
The Lord God revealed to me that I am afraid of the unknown in-Christ. God, help me in my unbelief. I have had a few dreams that I didn’t understand, but now when I look at them globally, it seems that I am afraid of the path less traveled, the unknown, death to self, complete surrender, etc. If you have wisdom in interpreting dreams, I really could use some help from the Body (especially prayers). I’ll explain each one and what my understanding is. If the Spirit guides you to a different understanding, please, by all means, please jump in or shoot me an email from the contact me form. Lord, help me by sending me an angel.
I always say something like this to friends while I keep involving myself in a struggle with God: “Ya, I’m struggling with this, but God is working with me on it. We are working it out.”
The other day, this all changed. A Pastor said: “What exactly is it that you’re working out with God? He has already worked it out.” After dwelling on this, something serious was revealed –
Apparently the Lord is on a new teaching this week for me. I have received 3 confirmations to my request: “reveal any hidden wickedness in me.” A month or so ago, He revealed that money and worry of money is a focus in my life. Since then, I’ve been getting bits and pieces of recognition of it in my life. It’s been on my mind and conviction is starting to settle in.
The Lord provides for the poor, the homeless, for the birds, for the lilies of the field, the bees, His churches/ministries, the grass in the field, etc. and here I am.. worrying about money, finances, etc. Lord, I believe, help me with my unbelief. Here is a very good lesson and a testimony that I received from a homeless man. First, the 3 confirmations –
For anyone following what the Lord was teaching me over the last week, along with a testimony or 2, you’ll see how today’s sermon at church was the Lord slam dunking the teaching home. Just wow… God is so amazing… the Lord surely Provides.
If you haven’t followed, I recommend checking out Unity and Oneness with God and the testimony about Jesus being the Doorway, starting off with this one: Testimony – Jesus is the Door –