Testimony of Kat’s Healing
Thanks to Kat for sharing her testimony. I pray this blesses and edifies! -
Hi my name is Kat, I just wanted to give God glory for delivering me from mental illness.
10 years ago I got very sick, I could not walk or talk properly and I had a tremor in my hand and severe pain. I saw 3 neurologist and the last was the top dog and he said that I was environmentally poisoned. I think he was right.
Due to my speech and not having insurance they wanted me to have a psychiatric exam thinking my speech was from some mental trauma. Go figure.. I took the normal exam and he asked me all these wonderful question when he got to the part that “Do I ever hear voices” Well I kindly to the man that the Lord speaks to me. He looked odd and asked me what he said and I told him anything he wanted he was God.
Then he asked me later on if I had anything odd happen to me. I did I asked the Lord to show me how he felt for the lost because I did not have any feelings for the lost. For 3 months I would hear him weep sometime quietly sometimes close sometimes far away off and on during these 3 months. It was tragic for me and finally I told him I knew how he felt and to please take it away I could not stand to hear him weep any longer. The doctor thought I was psychotic and that I had depression. I knew that I had depression from pain and not being able to work or pay bills so I took this medicine he gave me.
Please note that I have papers now that say I am mentally ill psycho-affective disorder with bi-polar tendencies….. I have lost 8 years of my life I was in and out of mental hospitals because I was totally messed up from this medicine. I was unable to read pray or even listen to music, My children were raised by a totally unbalanced Mom. Sad..I remember one day seeing this scripture 2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us the spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
I saw the word sound and I thought at the time it meant “safe” mind. I new this was true and I said out loud “Hmm” I wonder how He was going to do that? He showed me. I ran out of medicine and instead of sleeping 22 hours a day I only slept 16 I was amazed that I could stay awake so I did not take my refill, I then proceeded to wean myself off of the other two psychotic medicines by the grace of God He showed me how he did it!!!
I give God the glory for a sound mind and I am healed and restored to God’s glory. I have a heart for the lost I was lost for 8 years in a black world without knowing that God was even with me.
God is good.
I’m glad you got free! Praise God!
God can cry through people too, and there’s nothing weird about it.
Bless you and thank you for the testimony, it can be useful for a lot of people!
I get so many things out of this testimony. First, I wonder (partially from my experience with doctors) is it wise to be truthful with them in the way we think a Christian should be truthful? I mean, when they ask if we hear voices, we tend to get our evangelisticness up and say yes. But I would guess they are mostly asking, do we hear audible voices, right? And most of us believers do not, I think. And so because we are in evangelistic mode, we say yes, we hear, and the doc thinks we are saying yes we hear audibly. And so the crazy label goes on because we are not speaking his language. And so I wonder, maybe it is better, I don’t know, to look at what we are saying from the doc’s point of view. He already suspects crazy, do we have to confirm it? And does it glorify God to add one more of His to the crazy list? Is evangelizing in the way we evangelize always giving people the feeling that going with God is going to be helpful for us in the long run? Is evangelizing more about us telling, or is it more about them understanding?
I also like your honesty Kat. “I did not have any feelings for the lost.” I think I like to puff myself up a little online and maybe I wouldn’t have shared that out of pride. But I’ll be honest…many times I am just numb to myself, let alone unbelievers. Something in me has given up on me a long time ago, I don’t understand it but it is there. But thankfully Holy Spirit is still ticking in me.
And I just can’t get away from the feeling that even if one takes the crazy train, through meds or not, the grace of God doesn’t quit. God’s got a crazy love!
Hey, Kat you never know, maybe the pills helped (something obviously helped) but you should have started tapering back on them after a month or two of using them…maybe God was in all that…who knows, maybe your brain chemistry needed a little temporary whack, not that I recommend such a good hard whack as you got for others. A great god-story, Kat.